I had polarity with a perfectly healthy, masculine provider man and I sabotaged it all.
I created chaos in my relationship from the addiction that my biology and subconscious programming had to being “right” and proving myself right that my reality matched my intrusive and negative limiting beliefs.
I learned fast that this was truly destroying and eroding away the pure and divine masculine and feminine polarity that I had with my fiance. I felt so much shame and embarrassment. Even when I knew better, I still found myself emotionally reactive and in the Triggered Feminine “Wounded Little Girl” energy.
Taking responsibility felt so shameful. I had created the depolarized and chaotic situation that I loved to complain about and avoid ALL BY MYSELF.
That’s when I dove into a new era of inner work. Not just with feminine energy but a whole a$$ spiritual awakening within my body, my relationship, my business, my life.
I dropped the program. It fought me, but I dropped it. Put it on mute. Accessed my true Divine Feminine Self. The consciousness that I had been trying to reconnect to for years.